Here is the essay-https://docs.google.com/document/d/1KnqSGCDZwAwPZW9d1I7zD2j8zhkeOyJeu0DxJYrXARc/edit?usp=sharing
After writing this essay, I feel defeated. This essay has made me realize that I am not a very good writer, I have no scholarship deserving qualities, and clutter is the actual devil. I also know I have to work on self confidence. I think I struggled so much with this essay because I chose a topic that is hard for me to talk about and deal with, I originally chose my uncle who affected me greatly in life but I struggled getting through a paragraph about him #notoverit. After changing my topic to piano I felt a little better about it. I also struggled with the entire premise of the essay, I do not like thinking about the future let alone writing about it. I know I could have done a cover letter but even that stresses me out. I know I want to go to college but I tend to be a go with the flow whatever kind of girl so when I have to sit down and deal with the future.
I tend to ramble so writing is always a struggle for me, I’m really hoping the blog posts can truly be my own and I won’t have to go back and revise my paragraphs etc. but if I do, oh well lesson learned. While I was writing the essay I would go on tangents that made no sense at all and I would just start going on and on about the same thing, focusing is hard for me. I also felt like I was lying the entire time while writing, am I really that hard working? or responsible? I can barely keep my room clean that is not very responsible. I do believe I am passionate though, that’s about my only redeeming quality (that would warrant a large sum of money). Don’t get me wrong I do have good qualities so I’m not trying to make a pity party blog post, I just really struggled with the scholarship essay, but I would have had a breakdown if I tried to cover letter.
I think writing the scholarship letter did help me though, it was difficult and challenging and that’s the only way to learn and improve. I really need to work on clutter though.
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